Hiatus No More

I have returned.

I don’t know why it happens that I go long stretches of time without writing.. I’m lying I know exactly why it happens; my routine gets interrupted. I am a VERY routine person. I like to go to bed at the same time every night, and wake up at the same time every morning. If I can’t workout first thing in the morning then I don’t want to do it. I have to admit it is a curse more than a blessing. Don’t get me wrong the thought of someone being routine sounds like they are very unexciting but I would like to think that I am somewhat exciting. Just because I like my sleep patterns to sync up and I like to hit the gym at the same time everyday doesn’t mean everything in my life is that way. I still do fun things.

Anyway… The reason I have been away is because my routine got lost; my eye were bigger than my stomach and I had way more on my plate than I bargained for. I have finally taken care of my obligations and I have FINALLY learned how to say no. I try to always please people and say yes and put my feelings second but sometime last week I learned that “no” can sometimes be good. “No” can be a positive thing; not overloading my plate gives me more time for me and that is always a good thing.

After 27 years I have learned that I have to respect myself enough to say “no.” Because after all my happiness and sanity matters just as much as the next person. I have always been so eager to take on extra tasks and did not even think about what that does to my life and my schedule. I almost feel like taking on tasks didn’t bear as much weight as it does now. I am getting older (soooo old) and I really need to refine my focus and time on things that really contribute to my life.

With that being said, I am back. I look forward to sharing my adventures with you.

R

10/5/14

275 Days of Choosing Me

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It has been a while since I have blogged about anything; I had intentions of blogging but for this reason or that I just didn’t.

The ultimate reason is because for the past 275 days I have chosen me.

I made the conscience decision to start being more selfish.

Although I know that sounds very negative and well selfish… I have come to believe that being selfish isn’t as bad as it’s made out to be.

Being selfish can be a very positive experience if you let yourself have it.

Letting yourself be selfish allows you the opportunity to learn more about the person you are, it gives you time to invest in the things that you love, it also helps to clear some obstacles from your path when it comes to completing tasks on your to do list that you never seem to have the time to do, e.g., go back to school, finish school, go to the gym, spend more time doing what you want to do…

To be honest I am not sure what I really want to say or not say about the decisions I made but I do know that if I had not taken time for myself I would not be in the place that I am in today.I finally feel like I have a handle on my life, my career, my education, my physical wellbeing, as well as my mental wellbeing.

I now know that it is an absolute necessity to put yourself and your happiness at the top of your priority list (because I’m willing to bet that your happiness isn’t on the top of someone else’s list).

Life is filled with things that we have to do to make money, keep people happy, or what have you. If life is a constant cycle of doing what you must to keep your head above water, sooner or later that stuff is going to drag you down and it will be a very long and difficult journey to the top of the water, and an even longer one to find that happiness the daily grind has driven away.

One last thing that I think I want to say is that proceed with caution on your journey to selfishness, it is not for the weak. You will find that people around you will not understand the reasons that you have for doing what you do, they will outcast you, they will probably not want to be your friend anymore because you aren’t paying enough attention to them (this is where all the negativity of selfish comes from). But a true friend, or someone who really cares about you; they will understand the method behind your madness. And for that I am thankful. My good friends are still around (some other friends, not so much), somehow with all of my crazy antics, mood swings, bitch-fests, and even the days when I fall of the face of the Earth, I know who the good ones are. The ones who understand you in a time like this are the ones that will last a lifetime.

“It’s not selfish to love yourself, take care of yourself, and to make your happiness a priority. It’s NECESSARY.”

~ Mandy Hale 

And with that I am back.. expect more blogs (I know I always say that but trust I mean it)

r

7/4/13   – 180 days until 2014… what will you do with them? what have you been putting off?