Pursue Your Purpose

So my nifty planner that I purchased last month is all being aware and fulfilling the dreams that you have pushed aside for so long. This month the theme is to pursue your purpose. In the overview of February there is an excerpt about pursuing your purpose and a nice quote from Buddha.

“Your purpose in life is to find your purpose and give your whole heart and soul to it” -Buddha

I often find myself pondering what it is that I was put on this Earth to do and honestly I find myself wondering that even more lately. I am currently pursing my master’s degree and I find myself thinking what’s next? What do I want to be when I grow up? What am I really passionate about? And lately I find that I cannot answer those questions. I feel like I am back to that scene from Nemo where all the fish escape from the fish tank in little bags of water and are floating in the ocean; what now? I am in a weird sort of limbo that I am unsure of how to progress from. Is this a normal feeling to be having? I sure hope it is.


Recently family was visiting because there was a death in my family and everyone would ask me what I was doing, “school” always being my answer, and it seems to me that they think that I do nothing but school and that I will never do anything other than school. I think that people, especially older people, need to realize that things aren’t the way that they use to be. You cannot just get a job right out of college, because your dad has a friend that knows someone who works for _______. Getting a job requires so much more from a person now and it is befuddling that my family does not realize this. Okay, yes I don’t know what I want to be when I grow up and surely that is off-putting to some but please stop sounding so disappointed that I am pursuing my education. Because if you stop for two seconds and read what Buddha once said, my purpose is to find my purpose, and maybe, just maybe all of this schooling is how I will find my purpose. Maybe my job in the pharmacy is part of the path that leads me to my purpose in life.

I just need everyone to stop for a second and remember that while awareness of purpose may be blatantly obvious to one person there are going to be people who have to work at finding what that purpose is and it is going to take some time. So please bear with me (us), the path that leads to one’s purpose is not always clear and it surely does not need any additional roadblocks in the way.

Being a solid support system is the best assist you can give to someone who is finding their footing in life, no matter what their age is. We all need someone in our corner, remember that the next time you ask someone what they are doing with their life, and especially keep it in mind when you feel the need to roll your eyes or make a snarky comment.



Hiatus No More

I have returned.

I don’t know why it happens that I go long stretches of time without writing.. I’m lying I know exactly why it happens; my routine gets interrupted. I am a VERY routine person. I like to go to bed at the same time every night, and wake up at the same time every morning. If I can’t workout first thing in the morning then I don’t want to do it. I have to admit it is a curse more than a blessing. Don’t get me wrong the thought of someone being routine sounds like they are very unexciting but I would like to think that I am somewhat exciting. Just because I like my sleep patterns to sync up and I like to hit the gym at the same time everyday doesn’t mean everything in my life is that way. I still do fun things.

Anyway… The reason I have been away is because my routine got lost; my eye were bigger than my stomach and I had way more on my plate than I bargained for. I have finally taken care of my obligations and I have FINALLY learned how to say no. I try to always please people and say yes and put my feelings second but sometime last week I learned that “no” can sometimes be good. “No” can be a positive thing; not overloading my plate gives me more time for me and that is always a good thing.

After 27 years I have learned that I have to respect myself enough to say “no.” Because after all my happiness and sanity matters just as much as the next person. I have always been so eager to take on extra tasks and did not even think about what that does to my life and my schedule. I almost feel like taking on tasks didn’t bear as much weight as it does now. I am getting older (soooo old) and I really need to refine my focus and time on things that really contribute to my life.

With that being said, I am back. I look forward to sharing my adventures with you.