I have returned.
I don’t know why it happens that I go long stretches of time without writing.. I’m lying I know exactly why it happens; my routine gets interrupted. I am a VERY routine person. I like to go to bed at the same time every night, and wake up at the same time every morning. If I can’t workout first thing in the morning then I don’t want to do it. I have to admit it is a curse more than a blessing. Don’t get me wrong the thought of someone being routine sounds like they are very unexciting but I would like to think that I am somewhat exciting. Just because I like my sleep patterns to sync up and I like to hit the gym at the same time everyday doesn’t mean everything in my life is that way. I still do fun things.
Anyway… The reason I have been away is because my routine got lost; my eye were bigger than my stomach and I had way more on my plate than I bargained for. I have finally taken care of my obligations and I have FINALLY learned how to say no. I try to always please people and say yes and put my feelings second but sometime last week I learned that “no” can sometimes be good. “No” can be a positive thing; not overloading my plate gives me more time for me and that is always a good thing.
After 27 years I have learned that I have to respect myself enough to say “no.” Because after all my happiness and sanity matters just as much as the next person. I have always been so eager to take on extra tasks and did not even think about what that does to my life and my schedule. I almost feel like taking on tasks didn’t bear as much weight as it does now. I am getting older (soooo old) and I really need to refine my focus and time on things that really contribute to my life.
With that being said, I am back. I look forward to sharing my adventures with you.